This is my personal testimony that I felt lead to share in a devotion to any of those who many be struggling, give it to God. We can only move forward with God!!!
Sunday, December 14, 2014
DO ALL TO THE GLORY OF GOD!
1 Corinthians 10:31 Whether therefore ye eat, or drink, or whatsoever ye do, do all to the glory of God.
I am an ex-drug addict; matter of fact through the grace of God I have been clean and saved going on 4 years now. Like any ex-addict we can allow something to take the place of our old addiction. Mine became my weight. Within the first year of my salvation I took on the fitness lifestyle of eating clean and working out 5-6 days a week. The problem was that I became focused on other’s appearances and what I believed I looked like in the world’s eyes, “this became my new addiction.”I would compare myself constantly to everyone that was on the same weight lost journey I was; tearing myself apart over things I ate, not exercising enough or feeling like I looked fat. Matter of fact I threw up plenty of meals because I was so disgusted with my appearance. I allowed competition to arise in my heart toward others. My feelings surface and before you knew it I was distracted by the world’s view of fitness and skinny instead of God and how He seen me. I found out I was pregnant at the beginning of 2013 I was shocked; considering my two oldest were 11 and 8 and I had no plans of having another baby, especially in my mid 30’s. During my entire pregnancy all I could focus on was what am I eating, am I getting enough exercise, will this weight be easy to shred when I have the baby. After having my baby the Fall of 2013 I decide I was gonna go into 2014 with a new outlook and loose the weight with a godly mindset. My addiction of still having my eyes fixed on the world and with it’s view of beautiful and skinny was still there and not on God. Needless to say I crashed and burned within 6 months into this New Year. I finally gave up and did not care anymore about what I ate or looked like. But glory be to God, He never gives up on His children. I have gone through a spiritual detox these last few months; of having no desire to be apart of healthy eating or exercising. Being detox of all the worldly views of beauty; was God shutting the door that no man could open, (Revelations 3:7). I had no self control with food or sugary drinks. I was bitter toward the lifestyle of fitness and healthy eating. During my detox God open my eyes to see other’s hearts and not what they look like, (1 Samuel 16:7). He also open my eyes to see myself the way He sees me and that is as His BEAUTIFUL daughter, (1 Peter 3:4). God dropped 1 Corinthians 10:31 in my heart, I searched His Word out and it became clear to me what His desires was for me; whatever I eat, drink or whatever I do…DO IT ALL FOR THE GLORY OF GOD!! God had open this door back up, BUT, this time I am to glorify Him and not myself and look to Him and not this world, and see myself as He does. I don’t know what your struggles are; but even us saved Christians can have addictions. It can be the greed for money, being a closet drinker or smoker, anger and even lust. Know that we no longer have to be controlled by the habits or desires of our flesh; but by only the Holy Spirit. Just like David and Bathsheba, (2 Samuel 11-12: 1-7) our secrets will surface, because God knows our hearts and struggles. We just have to confess, repent, give it to God for restoration and allow the Holy Spirit to guide us. God desires for us to accomplish our small and large goals, through Him and with a godly heart, mindset and actions. With God we can overcome and move forward (Philippians 4:13 13 I can do all things through Christ which strengtheneth me.)
Most gracious Heavenly Father I am thankful that even when I am unfaithful, You are faithful. I praise You for being patience with me and having the way for me to overcome my struggles through the cross or Christ. I pray that as I enter into the new year I will stay focused on You and the strength I have to accomplish my goals through my Savior. I pray to keep my eyes fixed on You, in Jesus name I pray, Amen