Numbers 33:2 And Moses wrote their goings out according to their journeys by the commandment of the LORD: and these are their journeys according to their goings out.
In the book of Numbers, Moses writes out the journey the Israelite had taken from Egypt to the plains of Moab. He references the 40 years journey they had taken, the good with the bad, Romans 8:28. Each season has brought them closer to the promise land and closer to God. This chapter of Numbers, reminds me to stop and reflect on my journey and remember all the ways God has be faithful, Psalm 40:5.
The next time you stand starring at yourself in the mirror to take inventory on what you look like, please make sure you take in account of each season in your life and especially the season you are in right now.
This morning when I looked a myself in the mirror, I found myself looking at my reflection a lot differently then before. I gazed upon the extra weight I have put on, the stretch marks and my beautiful cellulite. I paused for a minute as I thought about how each one of these attributes helps to tell the story of my life.
My stretch marks were given to me by 3 beautiful children God has blessed me with to raise, love and lead in Jesus. My cellulite is apart of all the food choices I have made over the last 36 years of my life. I have ate tons of family meals with many family members who have gone on to be with the Lord, I have eaten many birthday cakes celebrating the lives of those I love. Plenty of baptist potlucks celebrating God’s amazing grace. I have eaten Santa’s cookies, tested Halloween candy. I have made memories with women I admire in the kitchen making yummy dinners and deserts. The extra weight, I carry today is from being restricted from working out, while God was saving me from Cervical Cancer.
How easy is it for us to get caught up in our appearances, that we forget how each prefect flaw makes us who we are today. Will we stay the same, nope, we will lose weight, gain it back along with gaining more stretch marks and cellulite during different season to come. We will grow older and gain the wrinkles of wisdom. Life is a journey and our bodies tell the story of each season we have lived and fought to survive in. If you are lucky you will have scars to prove you survived child birth, hysterectomy and mastectomy. Many of us have reminders of where God brought us from with tattoos and piercings from a another time of our lives.
Why do we hate the beautiful body God created to be apart of our life’s journey we are on seeking Him. We are made to be courageous, we are made to love, we are made to crave God and we were made to live life to the fullest as a Jesus boy/girl. Don’t get caught up in the one thing that want be prefect till you get to heaven, instead allow God to take you on a journey and let Him lead your fitness. Leave room to grow, leave room to rest. Love who you are, weight, cellulite, stretch marks and all, because God does!
October 18, 2016
Romans 8:28 And we know that all things work together for good to them that love God, to them who are the called according to his purpose.
Being days away from hitting my 6 week recovery mark from my hysterectomy; I have been reflecting back on this journey. I had good days, and bad days. I had strong days and very weak days. I had thankful days and self pity days. Each day as I travel through I look for the lesson in this journey. I prayed for eyes to see and a heart to understand. I ask for forgiveness when I focused on the giant rather then God.
This morning God showed me that we all have baggage that we tend to keep carrying along with us through each journey we take, that is why the climb is so hard at times. We tend to focus on what we left behind, rather then where God is taking us. Like the Israelites we yearn for the food in Egypt, rather then enjoying eating out of God’s hands, “Numbers 11:5-6.” There are things that God showed me I needed to drop and leave at the feet of Jesus and not pick back up. Like my Cervical Cancer that God delivered me from that no longer resides in me, these burdens need to be plucked out and tossed to the sea.
Today God revealed to me, answers from my prayers. What is the lesson, to let go of what is causing you to stumble and stunt your growth in Christ. My load has been lighten, the scales have fallen from my eyes. I can see the door that is open at the top of this mountain. New beginnings is what is in store for me, Revelation 21:5a And he that sat upon the throne said, Behold, I make all things new.
Lord I can not spend enough time at Your feet praising You for healing me and delivering me from cancer. I am thankful I have all eternity to praise You for Your mighty deliverance. I am thankful Father that You favor me, see me, hear me and chose me. I pray to leave all my burdens, struggles, and bitter roots at Your feet Lord, I pray as I enter into this new chapter of my life that I will be guided by You and have ears that hear, eyes that see and a heart that will be forever changed, in Your name Jesus I pray, Amen.
October 13, 2016
Matthew 7:1 JUDGE NOT, that ye be not judged.
For the first time in the 5 years that I have been saved and reading the Bible daily, I noticed today that the first 2 Words of God in verse 1 of chapter 7 in Matthew, is written in bold letters..”JUDGE NOT.”
Jesus tells us here how we are not to try and pull a splinter out of another’s eye, when we have a telephone poll hanging out of our own. Thinking about the eye and how we are able to see up close, it makes me think of a microscope. Jesus is basically telling us here in Matthew, that if we are too busy magnifying another’s sins, then we are not spending enough time glorifying Him for redeeming us from our sins.
How easy is it to see another’s faults, when our vision is blurred by our own sins. Far to often we tend to expect from others, what we ourselves are not able to deliver. We are better off praying over the beams, rather then spending time pulling on them while judging how they even got there in the first place.
Lord, I am no saint when it comes to judging, I have my fair share of it. Father, I know that You only make bold to the eye, of what we struggle with in the heart. I pray that You, Lord will forgive me for judging other’s for their sins, when I have my own to repent over and praise You for forgiving me, in Your precious holy name Jesus, I pray, Amen.
October 4, 2016
Psalm 105:26 He sent Moses his servant; and Aaron whom he had chosen.
It was no accident that Moses was lead to the burning bush or that Aaron, Moses’ brother was picked to help bring God’s people out of Egypt, (Exodus 3:1-3, 4:14-15.) Likewise it’s no accident when God places us at the right place, at the right time, with the right words to speak, (Exodus 4:12.) At the moment of salvation, we were chosen to minister, witness and lead others to Christ, (1 Peter 2:9.) Daily we need to make ourselves available so that God can use us to witness to the lost, (Exodus 3:4.) Our individual testimony of salvation should be the psalm upon our lips and in our hearts that we share with other’s; of how great our God is and of all His wonderful and marvelous works, (Psalm 105:1-5.)
Lord let me not forget the pit that You, Father pulled me from. I pray that my heart will be a continuous celebration of how great and mighty You are Lord. I am thankful You, have called me out to be a servant of my Savior, Jesus. In Your holy name I pray, Jesus, Amen.
September 30, 2016
Call upon the Lord
Jeremiah 33:2-3 Thus saith the Lord the maker thereof, the Lord that formed it, to establish it: the Lord is his name;
Call unto me, and I will answer thee, and show thee great and mighty things, which thou knowest not.
Each morning I receive a daily verse on my Bible app. Yesterday’s verse was Jeremiah 33:2-3, what I found interesting is how differently I seen these verses from times past. I can remember reading these verses and thinking, yes God hears my prayers and will answer them according to His purpose and will for my life. Today when I open my Bible app and read these verses again, I was able to connect the dot to what it’s new meaning was for me. My New Year’s prayer was that God would show Himself mighty in my home.
A few weeks back I under went a very common surgery among women, a hysterectomy. The reason for my procedure was endometriosis, but to all our surprise, it was actually cervical cancer, at it’s last stage before spreading. The doctor was able to successfully remove it, just in time.
Looking back at my prayer, of God showing Himself mighty in my home, and knowing that I just survivor the number one killer among women today; I stand in amazement. Yes, God did hear my prayer and yes He answered it in a mighty way. No doubt that the very God who created me, knew my need for healing, before I even knew of it’s existence hidden in my body.
Lord, daily I come before Your throne humbled at Your feet, praising You for Your mighty deliverance. I am thankful that You not only hear my prayers, but You see my needs I am unaware of and healed me. Thank You, in Jesus sweet name I pray, Amen.
September 29, 2016
1 Thessalonians 5:18 In every thing give thanks: for this is the will of God in Christ Jesus concerning you.
For me this month has brought it’s fair share of tears, joy and thankfulness. Today while I was walking on my treadmill, listening to worship music and praying, God laid “worship, prayer and thanks ” on my heart. These words, brought 1 Thessalonians 5:16-18 to my mind. Mediating on these verses, I thought about how Jesus said, in “John 16:33,” that we will face tribulations here on earth, BUT we can be of good cheer, because He has overcome the world and has given us peace. They only way we can claim this peace that Jesus has left us, is by following the guidelines Paul wrote in 1 Thessalonians, rejoice, pray and give thanks. We may not feel like rejoicing, praying or giving thanks while we are in the storm, but knowing we are more than conquers through Christ, “Romans 8:37,” should give us this peace to rejoice, pray and give thanks to God who remains in control.
Lord, I praise You, that You are my anchor that sustains me with Your peace. I am thankful that You have overcome and paved the road for my success to rejoice, pray and give thanks during my struggles. Lord help me to keep my heart and eyes on you, knowing that through You I am able to withstand, in Jesus name I pray, Amen.
September 25, 2016
God is Not finished!
Philippians 1:6 Being confident of this very thing, that he which hath begun a good work in you will perform it until the day of Jesus Christ.
If you have Facebook, you are familiar with “on this day,” it is a daily reminder of what took place on each day, of every year you have had Facebook. Today I open mine and was reminded of how great and faithful God is. Three years ago on this day I was awaiting the birth of my youngest child. Two years ago today I was given the determination to lose the weight from my pregnancy and get back into shape. Last year on this day I had accomplished many of my fitness goals. Today I am on a six week recovery plan from having a total hysterectomy two weeks ago. If I said I have not been struggling with the restrictions I am on, especially from exercising, which has been a huge part of my life, I would be lying. Truth is Satan doesn’t miss a day to remind me of what I not able to do; his many lies of how my hard work prior to my surgery was all for nothing. After looking back at all my days over the years, I was reminded that God has a purpose, (Jeremiah 29:11,) and that He is not finished with me yet, (Hebrews 12:1.) I know this to be true, because while I was in surgery the doctor discovered I had cervical cancer. It was at the last stage before spreading throughout my body and taking my life within a few years. As I am sitting in this hallway with many doors closed behind me, I am praising my God for healing me. I know that the next door God will open is greater than the doors behind me.
Lord, I praise You in this hallway, while I wait for where you are leading me next. Father help me to be reminded daily, that my testimony is a reflection of who You are and what mighty works You have done in my life. Lord help me to be that light, even in the hallway, in Your name I pray Jesus, Amen.
September 22, 2016
The Answer is Silence
Habakkuk 2:20 But the LORD is in his holy temple: let all the earth keep silence before him.
The prophet Habakkuk lived in a time, when violence and injustice was the moral decay of Judah. His prayer to God was, “how long shall I cry, and thou will not hear, even cry out unto thee of violence, and thou will not save, Habakkuk 1:2.” This is a plea to God to hear his prayers. He sees the injustice around him, and does not understand why God is not punishing those involved. When turning on the news or social media these days, we too find ourselves crying out “how long”? It is hard to sit back and watch the chaos and destruction of our nation today. Habakkuk 2:1, starts off by the prophet separating himself from the evilness going on around him, in order to watch for God’s answer to his prayer. While many maybe on their knees praying for our nations, as we should be, many of us believers are in the midst of the chaos pointing fingers of hate and anger. Jesus, knew the importance of being alone in prayer, listening to God, (Luke 5:16.) We do our best battling on our knees, rather then with words or weapons. When God answered Habakkuk, He reminded him that He is still sitting upon His throne in the holy temple. God is not blind to the evilness of the world, He is not deaf to the cries of His children. The trouble is, that we tend to focus on the problem, rather than our mighty God who fits the entire universe in the palm of His hands. Our ears can not hear, because our lips and minds are not silent to hear His still small voice. God’s answer for each generation that has faced the same devil and his demons will always be the same, (Be still, and know that I am God: I will be exalted among the heathen, I will be exalted in the earth, Psalm 46:10.)
Lord, I pray to spend time on my knees praying for my nation and for many to turn back and to You. I pray to watch in silence, for Your answer and mighty works in the hearts of this nation. Father I pray to stand strong and united with my brothers and sisters in Christ battling for souls to be saved, in Jesus name I pray, Amen.
September 21, 2016
Delivered from the Fire
September 21, 2016
Daniel 3:17 If it be so, our God whom we serve is able to deliver us from the burning fiery furnace, and he will deliver us out of thine hand, O king.
This summer without a doubt has been emotionally, physically and spiritually draining. My family has all been riding on a crazy roller coaster that has taken one to many loops. Back in July, I started experiencing some female health issues and by August I was diagnose with a bad case of endometriosis, which set me into early menopause at 36 years old. It was hard to except that I would have a total hysterectomy at such a young age. My faith, is what help me to understand that God has a purpose and His ways are always for my good, (Jeremiah 29:11.) On September 9th I had my hysterectomy and have begin my road to recovery. Five days after my surgery, my father in law who had been suffering with health problems, passed away of heart failure. Just when we thought the ride was over, it started back up again. The same thoughts I had battled with myself, came creeping back up with the loss of such a great man, I was blessed to have in my life. God again reminded me that His ways and thoughts are not mine, (Isaiah 55:8.) The day after his passing, I went for my post-op and God answered my many questions. My doctor discovered while I was in surgery, that I did not have endometriosis, but instead it was cervical cancer. It was at the last stage, before busting out of the cellophane bag it was contained in, before starting it’s next stage of spreading. Praise God, my doctor was able to retrieve it in time leaving me as a survivor of the number one cancer that takes the lives of many women. The inside parts I had been mourning over was the same parts that housed a cancer that would have taken my life within a few years, leaving my husband behind with our three children. Walking out of the appointment that day, I was reminded by God, that He is faithful and He will always deliver us out of the fiery furnace in different ways. I was delivered from the fire, and my faith has grown so much stronger. My father in law was delivered by the fire, into God’s arms, and his faith is now made prefect in heaven. When we are delivered from the fire that has no power, without our hair being singed, clothes being burnt or smelling like smoke from the furnace, God’s glory is all that can be seen from our deliverance, (Daniel 3:27-28.)
Lord I praise You, for Your mighty deliverance. My faith has grown and I know now without a doubt that You see me and hear my prayers. Thank You, Father for healing both me and Sam, in Jesus name I praise and pray, Amen.
September 20, 2016
John 4:14 But whosoever drinketh of the water that I shall give him shall never thirst; but the water that I shall give him shall be in him a well of water springing up into everlasting life.
Rooted deep in a big red rustic flower pot, is my beautiful purple potato plant. I planted about 8 single small potato plants at the end of spring and now those small plants have grown into long lushes full vines. Over the summer my potato plant has reminded me the importance of water. When it is thirsty, the leaves on the vines will droop. Within 10 minutes of watering it, the leaves perk up and the potato plant is full and beautiful once again. I usually keep up with watering it, but when it gets droopy like that, I know it needs a quick drink. That potato plant is a great example of my own christian life. When I have been drinking out of the Word of God and spending time in His presence, I look alive and radiant, but when I have gone days without so much of a sprinkle of life, I look dry and droopy. My first drink of the living water, Christ, promised me eternal life; but refreshing drinks in God’s Word the Bible keeps me thriving throughout my journey here on earth, heading home to heaven.
Lord, I praise You, for Your living water that not only saved me, but keeps my thirst quench daily. I pray that when I begin to droop, I will come to the well for a serving of Your living water, in Your name I pray Jesus, Amen.