Studying Habakkuk

Studying Habakkuk

(Read Habakkuk 1-3)

Here we have another short, but yet powerful book in the Bible. This book has answers to many of our own questions like Habakkuk himself ask God. The answers God gives to Habakkuk still echoes truth into our lives today.

One thing I have learned over the years about God’s Word, is that it truly is a reflection of our own struggles, fears, praises and victories. As I begin to study Habakkuk chapters one and two, I quickly found that I too have and still ask and complain to God with some of the same dialogue Habakkuk himself spoke. I have prayed for deliverance, healing, guidance, protection and understanding over many situations and people in my life. As I read through Habakkuk chapter one, the one thing that really stood out the most to me was God’s answer to a complaining believer, “I am going to do something in your days, that you would not believe, even if you were told, Habakkuk 1:5.” How amazing is it that even while we are whining to God about our current circumstance, God already has the blessing in route.

I remember seven years ago when I rededicated my life back to Christ, and I begin taking my children to church every Sunday and Wednesday, I immediately wanted my husband to jump on the righteous path with our family. When he did not oblige to my pleads of walking in Christ with our household, I took my request to the Lord. For years and years I prayed, cried, pleaded and even complained about the lack of my husband’s response.

A few years ago in 2016 I sat in the floor of my closet “war room” praying over the new year at midnight of New Years. God spoke boldly to my heart, I am going to do mighty works, and He impressed in my heart, “Proverbs 3:5-6.” God wanted me to trust in Him and not lean to my own understandings of what I expected!

So the year took off and I stood on the promises of what was coming. By the end of summer that same year, I was faced with a huge change in my own personal life that was about to come, I had to have a total hysterectomy. I found myself once again at the base of God’s great throne praying and yes complaining about my current circumstance. Was this truly the mighty works Lord, You had promise? Like Habakkuk’s second complaint in chapter one, I too did not understand God’s reasoning. Habakuk could not understand why God was using such a violent nation such as Babylon to bring judgment on Israel, God’s chosen people.

Even finding out one week after my surgery, that I had been delivered from cervical cancer that neither my doctor or myself knew I had hidden in my endometriosis, I still struggled with the why. Like Habakkuk’s pleads of captivity; I too could not understand the purpose of my current struggles that I faced from the healing and recovery process of my hysterectomy. Slowly my hopes for my husband’s obedience to Christ begin to fade as the new year of 2017 begin. This was not a year of victories for me, I struggled every single day of 2017. My lack of obedience to my doctor brought on my own struggles that year. He had told me to come back in a month after my post-op appointment to begin my hormone therapy, instead I decided to try a different route. I instead chose to go all natural, because I thought the hormone therapy would cost to much for my budget income family. I struggled physically and mentally with an aching body from the lack of hormones I needed. I also struggled spiritually, little at a time I became distant from God, slowly lacking in my prayer life and studying the Word. Like Habakkuk I lived in a season of why and complaints. Because I had failed to heed to my doctor’s orders to come back for hormones, like the Israel’s I suffered in my disobedience.

God had told Habakkuk in chapter one, He was going to do something, that Habakkuk himself would not believe, (Habakkuk 1:5). We end chapter two with God’s answer to Habakkuk’s second complaint with, “The Lord is in His holy temple, let all the earth be silent before Him, Habakkuk 2:20”. God is not unaware, blind or deaf to our current situations, prayers and struggles. He knows what we need before we even utter a word to Him in prayer. Even in our darkest seasons of “whys” God knows our needs. He is still on His throne and He is still in control, we just need to be still.

We open chapter three with a new tone, a new song full of praise. Habakuk had spent the last two chapters complaining of the current circumstances he and the nation of Israel was facing with captivity by Babylon as their judgment. Like Habakkuk I too open this new year of 2018 with praises. I did not see it at the time, but my year of struggling with my health and faith as I desperately tried to recover, my husband was watching on the side line. At the end of 2017 in November, my husband answered to the call of Jesus knocking. We moved from our prior church me and the kids attended for over 6 years and begin our family walk in Christ at our new church. This man that once rarely attended church with me now attends faithfully every Sunday. I rejoice looking back on my struggle, because God used that storm of my life as the bridge for my husband’s faith. This coming Sunday, January 28, 2018 My husband is getting baptized.

I will continue to ask God why and in I am sure I will complain as well over many seasons in my life that will take course. But, I can say from this past season and the study of Habakkuk which brought confirmation of God’s mighty work in my family’s life, had given me the understanding of His grace and mercy that He pours out to me daily, even when I can’t see or feel it. We end Habakkuk with a beautiful song of prayer, praising God for His faithfulness. Like Habakkuk we can be assured that God will always provide us with what we need according to His will. We too can sing the last verse of Habakkuk 3:19 to God with a heart full of faith and trust, “The Sovereign Lord is my strength; He makes my feet like the feet of a deer, He enables me to tread on the heights.”

Habakkuk leaves me with these questions.

How often do I see a struggle as a storm rather then seeing it as a divine bridge? Studying Habakkuk

(Read Habakkuk 1-3)

Here we have another short, but yet powerful book in the Bible. This book has answers to many of our own questions like Habakkuk himself ask God. The answers God gives to Habakkuk still echoes truth into our lives today.

One thing I have learned over the years about God’s Word, is that it truly is a reflection of our own struggles, fears, praises and victories. As I begin to study Habakkuk chapters one and two, I quickly found that I too have and still ask and complain to God with some of the same dialogue Habakkuk himself spoke. I have prayed for deliverance, healing, guidance, protection and understanding over many situations and people in my life. As I read through Habakkuk chapter one, the one thing that really stood out the most to me was God’s answer to a complaining believer, “I am going to do something in your days, that you would not believe, even if you were told, Habakkuk 1:5.” How amazing is it that even while we are whining to God about our current circumstance, God already has the blessing in route.

I remember seven years ago when I rededicated my life back to Christ, and I begin taking my children to church every Sunday and Wednesday, I immediately wanted my husband to jump on the righteous path with our family. When he did not oblige to my pleads of walking in Christ with our household, I took my request to the Lord. For years and years I prayed, cried, pleaded and even complained about the lack of my husband’s response.

A few years ago in 2016 I sat in the floor of my closet “war room” praying over the new year at midnight of New Years. God spoke boldly to my heart, I am going to do mighty works, and He impressed in my heart, “Proverbs 3:5-6.” God wanted me to trust in Him and not lean to my own understandings of what I expected!

So the year took off and I stood on the promises of what was coming. By the end of summer that same year, I was faced with a huge change in my own personal life that was about to come, I had to have a total hysterectomy. I found myself once again at the base of God’s great throne praying and yes complaining about my current circumstance. Was this truly the mighty works Lord, You had promise? Like Habakkuk’s second complaint in chapter one, I too did not understand God’s reasoning. Habakuk could not understand why God was using such a violent nation such as Babylon to bring judgment on Israel, God’s chosen people.

Even finding out one week after my surgery, that I had been delivered from cervical cancer that neither my doctor or myself knew I had hidden in my endometriosis, I still struggled with the why. Like Habakkuk’s pleads of captivity; I too could not understand the purpose of my current struggles that I faced from the healing and recovery process of my hysterectomy. Slowly my hopes for my husband’s obedience to Christ begin to fade as the new year of 2017 begin. This was not a year of victories for me, I struggled every single day of 2017. My lack of obedience to my doctor brought on my own struggles that year. He had told me to come back in a month after my post-op appointment to begin my hormone therapy, instead I decided to try a different route. I instead chose to go all natural, because I thought the hormone therapy would cost to much for my budget income family. I struggled physically and mentally with an aching body from the lack of hormones I needed. I also struggled spiritually, little at a time I became distant from God, slowly lacking in my prayer life and studying the Word. Like Habakkuk I lived in a season of why and complaints. Because I had failed to heed to my doctor’s orders to come back for hormones, like the Israel’s I suffered in my disobedience.

God had told Habakkuk in chapter one, He was going to do something, that Habakkuk himself would not believe, (Habakkuk 1:5). We end chapter two with God’s answer to Habakkuk’s second complaint with, “The Lord is in His holy temple, let all the earth be silent before Him, Habakkuk 2:20”. God is not unaware, blind or deaf to our current situations, prayers and struggles. He knows what we need before we even utter a word to Him in prayer. Even in our darkest seasons of “whys” God knows our needs. He is still on His throne and He is still in control, we just need to be still.

We open chapter three with a new tone, a new song full of praise. Habakuk had spent the last two chapters complaining of the current circumstances he and the nation of Israel was facing with captivity by Babylon as their judgment. Like Habakkuk I too open this new year of 2018 with praises. I did not see it at the time, but my year of struggling with my health and faith as I desperately tried to recover, my husband was watching on the side line. At the end of 2017 in November, my husband answered to the call of Jesus knocking. We moved from our prior church me and the kids attended for over 6 years and begin our family walk in Christ at our new church. This man that once rarely attended church with me now attends faithfully every Sunday. I rejoice looking back on my struggle, because God used that storm of my life as the bridge for my husband’s faith. This coming Sunday, January 28, 2018 My husband is getting baptized.

I will continue to ask God why and in I am sure I will complain as well over many seasons in my life that will take course. But, I can say from this past season and the study of Habakkuk which brought confirmation of God’s mighty work in my family’s life, had given me the understanding of His grace and mercy that He pours out to me daily, even when I can’t see or feel it. We end Habakkuk with a beautiful song of prayer, praising God for His faithfulness. Like Habakkuk we can be assured that God will always provide us with what we need according to His will. We too can sing the last verse of Habakkuk 3:19 to God with a heart full of faith and trust, “The Sovereign Lord is my strength; He makes my feet like the feet of a deer, He enables me to tread on the heights.”

Habakkuk leaves me with these questions.

How often do I misinterpret a struggle as a storm rather then seeing it as a divine bridge?

Who in my life needs to see Jesus through all my seasons, good and bad?

Do my complaints end with praises or do they remain as a why?

Who in my life needs to see Jesus through all my seasons, good and bad?

Do my complaints end with praises or do they remain as a why?

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Studying Jonah chapters 3 & 4

Studying Jonah chapter 3 & 4

(Read Jonah 3 & 4)

Reading through chapters three and four of Jonah, I have to admit I could feel the refinery fires burning away at my impurities. The amazing thing about studying God’s Word is that you don’t come out the same way you went in. The Word of God is active and like dry yeast in dough, we rise above what once held us down.

We read in Jonah chapter three that after his prayer to God from the belly of the fish, Jonah’s course of direction has changed. He finally obeys God’s command to go to Nineveh. What I found interesting is Jonah’s level of compassion when he did arrive to the city. He gave little to no information on to why in forty days they would all perish, (Jonah 3:4). How interesting is it, that like Jonah we have the gospel in our hearts, but often times we speak little to nothing of God’s great deliverance to a world in need of salvation. As you read along into chapter three, you see that God never really needs our eloquent speech He just needs our actions of obedience to carry out His will.

As I moved into chapter four, the fires heated up on my impurities. Jonah walks into the very city he had tried so hard to avoid only to reluctantly share God’s message of hope with no grace. How often do we wear the mask of love for the person(s) that God sent us to, when in our hearts bitterness is all that we feel.

Instead of seeing a city in need of a saving, Jonah sees a city through the eyes of judgment. After his quick warning to Nineveh, he exits the city only to sit in the judgment seat as a sulking onlooker. He once again boldly states that he would rather die then watch Nineveh be spared and blessed by God.

WOW, this lump in my throat is truly hard to swallow! I am guilty of often times, more then I’d like to admit of being the judge rather then the messenger of love, grace, hope and the gospel.

We end chapter four with a lesson and questions. The lesson is self explanatory, God is teaching Jonah in this chapter that He is the judge of all humanity not Jonah and that Jonah’s anger toward the people of Nineveh was personal and not practical. God’s anger toward the people of Nineveh was out of jealousy for their love. God’s mercy and grace is for all not just for a set few like Jonah stubbornly believed. God shows Jonah through the plant that He provided for him as comfort during his sulking fit, that God is in control of who He will bless. God reveals to Jonah how he was more concerned about the well being of the plant, rather then the salvation of children and animals. Here are the questions God ask Jonah, in order to have him examine his heart, (why are you angry, Jonah 4:4, is it right for you to be angry about the plant, Jonah 4:9). Unfortunately like Jonah, the bitterness in our hearts can consume us to the point where anger is all we can feel, making it hard for us to see through the eyes of grace in order to give the same mercy that God has and still blesses us with even at our worse.

I close the study of Jonah the same way I opened it in chapter one. This book is not just about God’s amazing grace and endless mercy or the bitter heart of a prophet that could not see past his anger toward a city; that he felt did not deserve mercy or grace. It is a book that reveals to us what easily could come about in our hearts. If we don’t stop to examine our bitterness, that quickly can turn into controlling anger leaving us feeling desperate to flee rather then surrender to God who blesses us more then we deserve.

Here are some questions Jonah 3 & 4 leaves me with to ask myself.

Why am I angry?

Why do I have bitterness in my heart that I refuse to let go of?

Why am I more concerned about the practical rather then the purpose of God’s will?

This study of Jonah has been a game changer for me. I am grateful that God does not leave us the way we entered into His Word and presence.

Studying Jonah chapter 2

Studying Jonah chapter 2

(Read Jonah 2)

As I read through the prayer of Jonah from chapter two, I could see myself in each Word that was penned by the Holy Spirit. This chapter reminded me of the past season I had just been delivered from and the lesson I learned and wisdom I gain from that season.

In verse one of Jonah chapter two we read where Jonah is literally praying from the pit of his current circumstance. That is all to familiar for many of us. How many times have we been on the fast track of destruction, only to pray when we finally crash. It is such a shame that we like Jonah; wait until we are in dire circumstances, before we cry out to God. I am sure this is the most urgent prayer that Jonah has ever prayed. Notice, like God is still Jonah’s God, He is our Lord even while we are in this peril.

This chapter of Jonah’s prayer, brought remembrance to me of how quickly we get caught in the storm of self destruction by simply not heeding to God’s warnings and instructions.

In September of 2016 I had a total hysterectomy. Leading up to the surgery and a few weeks after I was doing fine. I felt like a strong Christian woman and nothing was gonna bring me down. Except not heeding to the instructions of my doctor, who recommended me to come back a month after my post-op appointment to begin hormone therapy. Being a budget income family and only having discount insurance I was afraid of what this treatment would cost. So instead of asking my doctor’s advice I turn to the world. I started taking all natural hormone supplements. Sure the first few months I had myself convinced this was the best route to take. It didn’t take long until my body and mind begin to take it’s toll on not having the right amount of estrogen and testosterone that my body needed. Over that year I started gaining weight rapidly, my joints begin to ache and it became a chore to walk with my feet and ankles hurting. Along with my physical struggles, I was struggling mentally and spiritually. My prayer life became weak, my Bible begin to collect dust and my character took a U turn in the wrong direction.

Like Jonah I had found myself in the mist of a great storm I had brought on to myself, by running away from instructions rather then heeding to them.

My fish finally came and gulped me up in September 2017 a year after my surgery and devastating recovery. I sat across from my doctor at my one year well women check up, as he ask me what happen and why I never came back for my hormone therapy appointment. I begin to explain to him the natural supplements I had chosen to take, the way my body had been hurting and how I just felt mentally drained. The words he spoke, will forever remind me why…listening to our great Physician the Lord makes all the difference in our lives. My doctor said, Karrie if only you would have listen to me and came in for your hormone therapy, you could have avoided all the struggle, as well because you had a total hysterectomy you are not a candidate for natural hormone supplements. WOW..what a difference my new hormone therapy my doctor recommended has made on not just my body and mind, but my spirit as well. That little word “if” holds so much power, that we unfortunately have to learn the hard way sometimes.

From the pit of the whale I prayed for God’s deliverance from that storm and praise Him for the season that taught me the power of a surrender heart. Like Jonah I turn my eyes back to the Lord and from the mouth of the pit where I hit bottom I came back to the land of the living.

Jonah’s prayer teaches us that the only direction we need to be heading in is the way God had commanded us. God’s Word penned in Jonah gives us hope, that no matter how far off the track or down the pit we have found ourselves, God can and will always reach down lift us up and redirect us back into His will.

Here are the questions that Jonah chapter 2 has given me to ask myself.

How often do I second guess the people God places over me, such as my doctor and his recommendation only to search out my own plan rather then asking God for His wisdom?

How many times do I make plans without leaving room for God to change them to His plans?

How many more times will I pray from the belly of a whale, before I realize God is in control and I am not?

Studying Jonah chapter 1

Studying Jonah chapter 1

(Read Jonah 1)

My understanding of the book of Jonah is not that it tells just about God’s mercy or the story that unravels the bitterness Jonah has toward his enemy…but rather it is a book that mirrors our reflection of our worse characteristics.

In Jonah 1:2 God commanded Jonah to go and preach to the wicked city Nineveh. Jonah instead fled from God’s calling rather then facing this city, that he considers as his worse enemy.

Here is where the mirror of God’s Word reflects our lives today. Who has God commanded you to go and show love toward, that you would rather avoid by all causes? That is basically what God ask of Jonah, go to this wicked city and show them love. But like Jonah, we don’t want to face that person(s) so we come up with every excuse to avoid any encounter with them; basically we flee!

In Jonah 1:3 we read that Jonah had boarded a ship to cross the sea and flee to another city, called Tarshish. If we are honest, we have all been guilty of skipping town and heading toward our own Tarshish, so we can avoid a certain person(s).

But, Jonah had forgotten in his desperate flee, that God the creator of all things, has control over the winds and the seas. Jonah 1:4 describes how God then commanded the winds to cause a violent storm on the sea and torment the sailors upon the ship. This raging storm caused each crew and passenger to question one another’s current status, (Jonah 1:5-7.) After they had found out Jonah was to blame for the sudden disturbance of their smooth sailing, Jonah suggested for the men to just throw him overboard so he could drown, (Jonah 1:12.) Jonah displayed his greatest weakness of character here, he would rather die, then have to go back and face his enemy.

Wow! How often would we rather die (so to say) then face that one person(s) God is asking us to show love toward. No we would rather preach the gospel to a stranger, then show love to a family member or distant friend. We would prefer to hold onto bitterness rather then surrender to God and show them mercy and love.

I think Psalm 139:7-12 sets the stage for Jonah 1:17

Psalm 139:7-12 KJV “Whither shall I go from thy spirit? or whither shall I flee from thy presence?

If I ascend up into heaven, thou art there: if I make my bed in hell, behold, thou art there.

If I take the wings of the morning, and dwell in the uttermost parts of the sea;

Even there shall thy hand lead me, and thy right hand shall hold me.

If I say, Surely the darkness shall cover me; even the night shall be light about me.

Yea, the darkness hideth not from thee; but the night shineth as the day: the darkness and the light are both alike to thee.”

Jonah really thought he could outwit God and hide or die from Him, but like Psalm 139 reads, there is not a place we can hide. “Jonah 1:17 Now the Lord provided a huge fish to swallow Jonah, and Jonah was in the belly of the fish.”

Here are the questions this study of God’s Word from Jonah chapter 1 lead me to ask myself.

Who is God asking me to show love toward?

Who is God asking me to show mercy toward?

Who is God asking me to forgive and let go of bitterness toward?

With this new year upon me, these are questions I need to pray over and surrender to the Lord for deliverance of my bad characteristics.

God Has & Will Deliver Us!

October 11, 2017
God Has & Will Deliver Us! 
2 Corinthians 1:10 Who delivered us from so great a death, and doth deliver: in whom we trust that he will yet deliver. 
This week marks the resuming of where I left off on my fitness journey. I have been trying to get back into the race for over a year now, since my hysterectomy that knocked me off course last year. This season has not been easy, I lost muscle tone and gained weight back, I had hope to never find again. Last night as I was working out in my garage gym, Satan started to remind me how easy tricep dips use to be and how much smaller my waist was a year ago. As his lies begin bouncing around in my head, my heart quickly took over and reminded me of who I am. I am the child of God who delivered me from the grips of cervical cancer, (Psalm 18:19b He delivered me, because He delighted in me.) As I stood looking back at my reflection in my gym mirror, I was reminded how I was surrounded by flames in the fiery furnace. But my sweet Jesus not only stood with me in the furnace, He delivered me and kept me from being burned or even smelling like smoke when I was delivered from the grip of death, (Daniel 3:17, 25-27). Knowing that my God delivered me, not only has strengthen my faith, but has given me the greatest weapon to rebuke Satan, His Word, (2 Timothy 4:18 And the Lord shall deliver me from every evil work, and will preserve me unto his heavenly kingdom: to whom be glory for ever and ever. Amen). God has allowed this mountain before me to remain, so that I can climb it and show others, fitness is not a goal…but a life long journey we walk with Jesus daily. 
Lord, thank You for reminding me last night, that my testimony of deliverance is the greatest weapon against Satan’s schemes and lies. You Lord did not deliver me or bring me this far to be defeated, but rather use my faith to overcome, as Christ did the world. I pray to remain in Your Word and be strengthen daily in my faith, in Jesus name I pray, Amen. 

A New Perception 


October 2, 2017
A New Perception
Isaiah 55:11 So shall my word be that goeth forth out of my mouth: it shall not return unto me void, but it shall accomplish that which I please, and it shall prosper in the thing whereto I sent it.
A few weeks ago I had my one year check-up since my hysterectomy. At that check-up I received many answers to questions I had been asking myself over this year. Why is it that I have been eating salads like they are going out of style and have been working out over the course of this year from the date that my restrictions were lifted last October, but I haven’t lost an ounce or inch? My doctor did not sugar coat his answers. Because you chose to not come back to your appointment when you would have started hormones. Because you chose not to take hormones, your body has no metabolism, which equals you won’t lose weight. So I ask, basically I ate healthy and ran a bootcamp at church this year for nothing? His responds, Yes! 

You can just about imagined where that put me, feeling discouraged and defeated! These last two weeks leading up to my most recent appointment, which was last Thursday, to finally start my pellet hormone therapy, I spent mourning over all the hard work I did for nothing. Today I am on day four of my hormones, which means my metabolism is back, so I went for a three mile walk, thinking that now it all counts. As I was walking along, God dropped this in my heart. “It was not all for nothing! At any point in time you could have quit. When the numbers on the scales kept climbing and your clothes size kept increasing you could have quit. Instead you took what you had learn from my Word and kept going, (I press toward the mark for the prize of the high calling of God in Christ Jesus, Philippians 3:14.) Each day that you took a lap around this mountain, was another day you grew in perseverance. You kept going, even when you seen no results, it was then that your faith was strengthening. At any point in time I could have removed this mountain, but it was the endurance I wanted you to gain in order to have the strength to take on this mountain with faith even if it is the size of a mustard seed.” 

I can say I gained more then burning calories on my walk today, I gained a new perception. This season has not been a setback, it has been a setup for where God is taking me. This mountain is about to be moved! 
Lord, thank You, for not just coming on my walk with me today, but for ministering to me as I walked. Thank You, for opening my eyes and giving me wisdom and understanding of my current season and situation. You never assign us mountains to set us back, but rather to build our faith, thank You, Lord, in Jesus name I praise and pray, Amen. 

Strength in My Weakness 

September 12, 2017
Strength in My Weakness 
2 Corinthians 12:9 And he said unto me, My grace is sufficient for thee: for my strength is made perfect in weakness. Most gladly therefore will I rather glory in my infirmities, that the power of Christ rest upon me. 
Each year on the first day of January, we tend to look back and reflect on the year we just ended. Some have yearly marks they like to celebrate of overcoming and reflect on that year. Just last week I celebrated one of those marks. As I stood upon that mountain top and staked my one year flag of recovery from my hysterectomy into the dirt, I looked back at how the path spoke volume of my pilgrimage. I could see where I started off strong, but my weakness quickly took over my journey. Throughout my traveling on this recovery road, there was evidence of only one set of footprints, because God had to carry me through some rough patches. There were deep impressions of drag marks where I had felt reluctant to move on. Along my path were fire pits, because I had camped out in those spots, when the road ahead seemed to hard to travel. Patches of beautiful gardens bloomed as I travel in the result of my faith growing. Unfortunately there were lone fruit trees with flies swarming around rotten fruits, resulting in my bad attitude along my journey. As I stood on top of my one year mountain and looked over these evidence of my rough recovery, I paused and ask God to forgive me for my failure and allowing my weakness to overcome me. God graciously reminded me of His love and that in my weakness, His strength shined through. I was reminded that I did not travel that road alone, He was by my side and carried me the whole way through. At those campsites He gave me rest, (Psalm 23:2). The beautiful gardens were a result of my faith and the moments I was quite and could hear God leading me, (Psalm 23:3, Psalm 46:10). The drag marks and rotten fruit that was behind me now, is truth that God’s strength sustained me and carried me through. Often times we look for God only when the flowers are blooming and the birds are singing, but the truth is God is the same God on the mountain top as He was in the valley. No matter where we are on this journey, God is always with us and seeing us through to the next journey, (Psalm 139). 
Lord, there was a sense of peace that washed over me when I hit my one year mark on my recovery. It was a sense of thankfulness that the year was behind and the journey ahead was only going to get better. I am grateful that You, Lord never gave up on me and kept me hidden under Your mighty wings. Lord may I never forget that You are always an arm reach, an ear length and love given away to me at all times, in Jesus name I pray, Amen. 

Celebrating Victories 

Psalm 40:2 He brought me up also out of an horrible pit, out of the miry clay, and set my feet upon a rock, and established my goings. 
Psalm 18:19 He brought me forth also into a large place; He delivered me, because He delighted in me. 
Throughout the Bible you can find acknowledgments of feast that the Israelites celebrated yearly of their victories over their enemies. 

Today is one of those celebrations for me. 1 year ago I was delivered from cervical cancer..”that I did not know I even had until my post-op appointment a week later.” I thought I was having a normal hysterectomy due to endometriosis. So today is a very special day for me..it was the day God not only healed me, but He delivered me from my enemy. I also have another important date I celebrate every year. Today I am 6 years 8 months and 4 days delivered from addiction..another day that God split the Red Sea and delivered me from my enemy and healed my heart. Anytime God delivers us from the enemy’s grip..is a day of celebration and should not be taken lightly. The recovery of my surgery was hard..but looking over this year, one thing is clear..I have a testimony of God’s saving grace and deliverance that Satan himself can not take away from me. My testimony is a celebration of how mighty my God is! Thank You, Jesus. I am looking forward to this new year and what is to come in the Lord 🙌🏻 Psalm 32:7 Thou art my hiding place; thou shalt preserve me from trouble; thou shalt compass me about with songs of deliverance. Selah

The Sift that Stregthens 

September 6, 2017
The Sift that Strengthens 
Luke 22:31-32 And the Lord said, Simon, Simon, behold, Satan hath desired to have you, that he may sift you as wheat: 

But I have prayed for thee, that thy faith fail not: and when thou art converted, strengthen thy brethren. 
I remember my thoughts the first time I read the story of Peter denying Jesus, (Luke 22:54-61) “what was going through his mind when he denied Christ, the very Savior who called him the rock and spoke authority over the gates of hell not prevailing against the church He would build upon that particular rock, (Matthew 16:18).

The expression, walk a mile in their shoe and you will understand became clear to me days and months after my own sifting as wheat. Looking back over this year, I can see where I stumbled and where my feet slipped. I know for a fact that Satan himself was up to no good when I sat across the desk from the doctor telling me I would need to have a total hysterectomy. Sure I prayed the prayers and read the Word and tried preparing myself for what was to come with this type of surgery. I went into this season with a heart full of I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me, (Philippians 4:13), only to find myself on my knees praying to make it just through the next hour. As minutes, hours, days and months passed during my recovery, I found myself angry at God for what I was going through. I never thought I would tell God I was mad at Him. I may have not denied Christ as Peter did, but I denied His goodness He had for me, (Jeremiah 29:11). 

 Not knowing I had just been sifted by Satan, slowly my prayers became faint, my Bible started to collect dust and my walk became weak. All the while I was mad, Jesus sat at the right hand of God praying for me. Today my heart could not be more full of love for my Savior, matter of fact it overflows. During that time of my anger I could not hear from God, but the moment I was still in His Word and in prayer (Psalm 46:10), He reminded me of my purpose. I am the church and upon this church hell will not prevail. God used the cervical cancer He saved me from, that Satan had planned to destroy me with, as my greatest testimony of how great God is. Peter could not understand why Jesus was going to die on the cross, he thought Jesus was building His kingdom here on earth. Though I have the Bible to reference to that God is for me, I still stumbled like the rock Peter. What gives me spiritual goose bumps, is that if you read on in Peter’s story, you read where he rose up from his stumble and preached at Pentecost that resulted in three thousand coming to know Jesus Christ, (Acts 2:14-41). I don’t know what you are disappointed in yourself right now on how you did not handle temptation well and how you may feel that you have let God down. But know this that we serve a God that uses our sifting not to just strengthen our faith, but to send us out with a testimony of His amazing grace. 
Lord, I am grateful for Your healing touch over my mind, heart and body. I praise You for saving me and for allowing the sifting of wheat to strengthen my faith. Lord may I never take Your sacrifice on the cross lightly, I pray that my testimonies of Your grace will always point to the cross, in Jesus name I pray, Amen 

A Double Mind makes A Weak Spirit 

September 1, 2017 
A Double Mind makes A Weak Spirit 
Proverbs 3:5-6 Trust in the LORD with all thine heart; and lean not unto thine own understanding.

In all thy ways acknowledge him, and he shall direct thy paths.
We read in Matthew 16:13, that Jesus took His disciples off to the side at the coast of Caesarea Philippi and He ask them, Whom do men say that I the Son of man am? Each of His disciples had a different answer of who people say Jesus is, some said John the Baptist, others said Elias, Jeremiah or one of the prophets, (Matthew 16:14). Then Jesus twist the question around on His disciple in Matthew 16:15, and ask them, whom do you say I am. Suddenly the question became personal for each of the disciples. Who was Jesus to them? Peter gave the best answer, Thou art the Christ, the Son of the living God, (Matthew 16:16). That definitely sounds like an answer we believers would give if we were ask by Jesus, whom do you say I am?No more then 5 verses down, Peter is rebuking Jesus from going to the cross and dying for all the world, (Matthew 16:22). 

WOW, doesn’t that sound familiar, how quick are we to encourage another in Christ, only to turn around and question His plans for our lives. This month marks one year since my full hysterectomy, I spent the better part of this year questioning God of His plans for my life. Though I was spared of death from cervical cancer, I felt trapped in an endless battle of mind over matter, this often left me feeling discouraged for questioning God for His saving grace. I felt as though I was being double minded, (James 1:8). It’s so easy to live on the mountain top and praise God when life is good, but it’s in the valley where our faith takes on a new direction and where we truly learn who Jesus is. Jesus is my healer, sustainer, comforter, Savior, grace giver, mercy deliver and the Great I am that burns deep within me. We can trust that Jesus will be the same tomorrow as He is today and forever, (Hebrews 13:8).
Lord, let me never forget that You, the same God who spoke the world into existence, moved mountains on my behalf a year ago to spend another day glorifying Your mighty hand upon my life. I praise You for the valley that has brought abundant growth in my faith, in Jesus name I pray, Amen.